Such a tight feeling in my chest, I think I am going to burst. I gave a speech for women’s day at my organization. They loved it…so much that they’ve asked for copies of it! The topic was quite fascinating and something I didn’t find too difficult, cos my alter ego has been preoccupied with it currently on the ‘other’ blog. A lot of what I wrote was in fact taken from that blog. At least the ideas were.
I was scared I’d be asking for trouble cos I was questioning many conventional and perhaps ingrained ideas. But I am ashamed to say that I underestimated my colleagues. They were an awesome audience and were so responsive, it was such a pleasure….
But that’s not the issue today. The issue is…I have this tight feeling in my chest. A feeling of breathless excitement. A feeling that there’s something momentous around the corner…or is that just my heart’s desire? Something is stirring up on the inside. Something I’d forgotten. Something that comes feeling so pure, so clean, I am quailing at the possibilities ahead. A mixture of irrepressible excitement, a tinge of anticipation, a dollop of fear…
S is amused at how I have been giggling too often these days. She is right. I do break out into giggles ever too often. But why oh why oh WHY?!?!??!?!
This morning I sat down to pray and couldn’t…. I giggled before God too and said “Please God, please, please, please.” Remembered just in time to add, “But let Your will be done.”
*sigh* I am going crazy. That’s it. Stark raving mad. I want! I want! I want!
I am feeling so many things at once; I am having trouble keeping pace with my feelings.
I was scared I’d be asking for trouble cos I was questioning many conventional and perhaps ingrained ideas. But I am ashamed to say that I underestimated my colleagues. They were an awesome audience and were so responsive, it was such a pleasure….
But that’s not the issue today. The issue is…I have this tight feeling in my chest. A feeling of breathless excitement. A feeling that there’s something momentous around the corner…or is that just my heart’s desire? Something is stirring up on the inside. Something I’d forgotten. Something that comes feeling so pure, so clean, I am quailing at the possibilities ahead. A mixture of irrepressible excitement, a tinge of anticipation, a dollop of fear…
S is amused at how I have been giggling too often these days. She is right. I do break out into giggles ever too often. But why oh why oh WHY?!?!??!?!
This morning I sat down to pray and couldn’t…. I giggled before God too and said “Please God, please, please, please.” Remembered just in time to add, “But let Your will be done.”
*sigh* I am going crazy. That’s it. Stark raving mad. I want! I want! I want!
I am feeling so many things at once; I am having trouble keeping pace with my feelings.
posted by Rapunzel at 2:07 pm
32 Comments:
Cheers!
Hey Rapz!
First things first (btw..i came here first!!): HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY!!!!
Second things second : Hope that what's around the corner is sthing that u've been waiting for!
Shain
just when i thought the similarities were beginning to end, you go and take some feelings out of me and put them down here.
i've felt this way often enough. sometimes you wake up feeling like this, and you comb ur brains for the 'Reason For the Excitement'.. but the feeling, it's priceless. regardless of the 'RFE'..
we's heart's you's
its always good to feel.. that means you are living... :) instead of just mechanically going on in life..
:))
best!
austere
Congrats on the speech! "other blog"? anonymity in anonymity? Don't wanna elaborate on that. If only all the people had the power of expression that you have.
relax and feel your breath.
May be you should post the speech here so we could read it too. Nothing but good stuff expected from you. :-)
And giggles are fun. Giggle away. :-)
yes sometimes u feel like giggling for no rhyme or reason.Either that or you have something up ur sleeve u aint telling us ;-).
Hmm...although the symptoms are clearly indicative of something we won't mention just yet, we should let you know that we're happy for you :-) Even if we're wrong :-)
Oh, can we also have copies of the speech, please!
SANITY STARVED-*giggle*
EVERYMAN-first:no u didnt.someone had already commented before u...but u didnt see it cos it comes to me for 'approval' first.
second:i hope so too:-/ but what am i hoping for anyways?!?!?oh dear...i am feeling quite muddled.
METHINKS-yes yes yes. but its horrid to be the queen of de ni(a)le :( or am i just cooking up everything in this overactive head of mine?whats the deal abt anyways??if u r me, u tell me!
PALLAVI-i am always feeling. sometimes more than i can handle...sometimes more than i want:-/
AUSTY-for???
BHARAT-then the world would be a muddled up place with nothing get done, cos people would be sitting and yapping away all the time or soul-searching or doing something along the same 'vetti' lines :)
VIJAY-feel more than all that i already feel?? :-O
SINUSOIDALLY-it'd bore everybody to death! maybe extracts...hmmmm....the hitch is i went with an 'original' speech.. but the actual speech kinda evolved from my audience's response and their expressions.
CERISE CARNATIONS-its just ur second/third time on my blog and u r figuring me out already???;-)
GHOST-*turns pink* sheesh! and i thought i was being subtle and secretive:-O n yes, i think u r wrong:-D or i am the queen of 'de-nile'*sigh*
Rappy... Know the feeling lady! Thats how i felt when i met you know who when i joined Frost :) I'm so glad the speech went well. Did someone tape it or something? Would love to see that!
And that feeling you are having now is because of the excess baggage you are shedding! :)
wud love to read that speech of urz , do post it puleeeeeeeze .
n do i smell symptoms of love :))
GREY-no greykins! u r assuming too much. and yes, the speech had me feeling high :) i must be some ego-maniac....i loved the feeling of people hanging on with rapt attention to every *ahem* "opinion" of mine;-)more so, cos i saw everybody nodding away for the previous speech. moral of the story-people like to have their boats rocked once in a while! am soooooooooooooooooooooo yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaappppppppppppppppppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy and sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SWATHI-love?!?!?!??horrors!no!just incredible excitement at what's around the corner! a feeling that my life is in such purrrrrrrrfecccct control!
naturally, i could deny all that in my next post and say something radically different but inconsistency is allowed on blogs:-D
been there too...its a great feeling and at the same time v confusing coz u cant understand y its al there..cant understand whats around the corner..thats how i felt..
wd like to c the speech...
read third person/plural as first person/singular.
I haven't had the time to think about the world. ;)
PS- nth request to post ur speech. Don't underestimate ur readers. We have a high degree of tolerance to boredom.
and feel more than you already feel.
APARNA-takes one gal to understand another :)
BHARAT-ooops! eh?
VIJAY-*lost*
when you relax and feel your breath you will feel more than you already feel, some perspectives appear out of nowhere when we feel our breath and not the excitement, gves us focus, better understanding..maybe there will be less laughter but there will be more joy.
on your trip, the places near calcutta will remind you of kerala, the climate and attitude of the people, atleast in the cities. I've not got much experience of bengali villages except having crossed them gaping at the scenary. and for gifts , one should know the person to select a gift.
still *lost*??
yes sir! no sir! thank you sir!
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